what's meant to be will always find a way ..

2008-12-06T11:30:00.003+08:00

damn i am on pm shift while he is on am shift today.. arrgghhh after 2 days of rest i don't feel like working !!!! i have 2 years 4mths more to go =(((((((( so dreaded whenever i think about it ..
i really have the urge to break my bond when i reach my 2nd year but thinking about it, it's a like a little stupid to pay back 10k+ when i am left with only 1 more yr to go .. well well i shall always look forward to my next annual leave to push me to be more motivated to work ..

i can't wait for 2009 april to arrive !!!!!! i want to fly off to japan and enjoy myself together with baby and his family to the fullest and it will be even better if i don't need to come back to work whahahahas =P it will be a 12 days vacation woohooos ! i am very excited about it cos' japan is one of the country that i have always been wanting to go .. we might be taking the SQ A380 airbus too (: .. i want to see mount fuji, i want to go to hokkaido to eat seafood, tokyo disneyland to see winnie the pooh !!!!! okies i am damn excited now ! it's really good to fly around the world with kh beside me, more to come after my bond ended and after your ns ended i want to go to europe therefore i am starting to save up now hees ..

during my august AL i will be flying off to hong kong with ting just the 2 of us (: i hope we wont go missing cos ' our sense of directions cannot make it one. .. guess we will shop and eat till we drop ! it's like the malaysia trip we had in year 1, it's so fun cos we share the same room and we talk rot till we fall asleep hahas =) .. i think after tokyo disneyland i won't want to go to hk disneyland wahahahahas, ting will cry if she read this cos she must go to the DL there hahas ..

November my next annual leave will not be travelling, it will be the week ting and i celebrate our 21st birthday ! we've somehow plan on what to do and i really cross my fingers that baby is able to book out that weekends .. well november 08 just past us and we are have already planned nov 09 wahahahas =X

i hope 2009 will be a better year for me, i want to recieve many ang baos during CNY in january so i can spend it in japan wahahahas =X .. will be attending my cousin's wedding in march 09 at jurong bird park, what a place +_+ .. hees well well shal look forward to 2009 to arrive, till then (:

2008-11-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

it's a fcuked up day !

2008-11-07T23:12:00.004+08:00

THE PERFUME BABY BOUGHT FOR ME (:

YUUMMY STEAK AT OUTBACK STEAKHOUSE WITH TING & CLEMENT (:

SUNTANNING WITH BABY IS LOVE (:

I AM FINALLY 20 hees .. okies it not very exciting though but yeaps i enjoyed my birthday celebrations with my friends and baby (: and had a good 5 straight days off .. i recieved many wishes from friends which makes me even happier ! love all of you hahahahahas =P

went suntanning with baby is <3 you ="D">

OH YEAHS i went taiwan last month between 6th october to 13th october together with baby's family ! it's really nice going holiday with them, we went to many places which kh and i didnt go during our april taipei trip .. this time round we went to jiufen, ye liu, wu lai. tapei national museum, visited many night markets and the fishermen's wharf .. oh man i enjoyed myself to the max whahahahahas many nice sceneries and i manged to see a dormant volcano at yangmingshan and and and i saw jay chou at hsimending !!!! =) too many to say, the photos in my friendster says it all =P

our next trip is to japan in april which i hope his dad won't change his mind .. woohooooooossssssssss it's one the country that i am dying to go ! (: starting to save lots of money to ensure i can enjoy to the fullest there ! .. i want to go to the disneyland to see winnie the pooh and i wanna go mouunt fuji and eat many many many yummy seafood there (: !!!!!!!!!!!! (: alrights till then ...

2008-09-12T15:47:00.005+08:00

yippe doing my 1st round of night shift tonight with nicole cos we requested to work together (: .. guess it's gonna be fun hees .. doing night shift means more money .. more money means i can buy my lomo camera and do hair extensions before going taiwan ! means i am gonna spend near 300 bucks on this 2 things but well guess it's worth it (: i want to use the camera to capture the beautiful moments we have in taiwan !

met up with the usual people yesterday at pasir ris downtown east .. i had fun playing ''in between'' with them .. hahahahas it's do damn funny .. ashraf lost like 80 plus dollars !! it's damn exciting and we had a good laugh (: .. and yes ashraf lost a lot a lot a lot of weight like 12 kg so yeahs he can laugh at me now cos i used to disturb him saying he very fat whahahahas =X now cannot say that to him already hahas .. but well really happy everyone is doing well .. maesh going in next tuesday hope he survive whahahahas ..

seeing these guys going into ns .. reminds me of what will happen when kh goes into ns? i see ting not being able to meet ashraf for 3 weeks plus is like hell hahas .. i think that will happen to me too =X .. well well guess going for a short holiday with him before he goes into ns next year (:

i feel sleepy but i laid on my bed for half an hour still unable to sleep =( hopefully i wont feel tired tonight hees .. woke up at 615am today to go to baby's house to meet him and SLEEP wahahas .. we had a very filling breakfast at west mall, ate toasted bread, half boiled egg and drank ice tea yummy yummy ! took mrt to jurong east to buy stamps cos' i am running out of stamps and i've got many clothes to mail out =P ..

going to donate blood on monday with baby @ HSA cos' he asked me to go and i must admit i am really scared it's gonna be painful =X but well i shall try hees ..

cant wait for 25th to arrive so i can buy my camera and do my pretty hair extensions ! i think i will post photos here if it looks good =)

till then ... ZzZzZzzZzzZzzZZzz

2008-08-25T01:14:00.004+08:00

i think sister *** is gonna hate me for sure cos' she called me up today to work pm shift cos' there are not enough staffs and it's the 2nd time i am rejecting her =X well she have already blacklisted me .. i guess i cannot reject her the 3rd ime if not next time she will not give me the off days i requested =P

i didnt want to go back to work today cos' it's our 1st year anni today and i really want to spend time with him (: i surprised him by giving him cuppies and he said he loves it woohoos so happy !

we went shopping around at town today and i bought a pair of gladiators and a top from FOX, he's suppose to buy long sleeves top but due to him being picky and choosy he couldn't find any but he bought a pair of bling bling ear studs from far east .. it look just nice for his ear lobe but then he thinks it's too small +_+ .. went to PS manahattan fish market for dinner and it is not as nice as i expect it to be but baby thinks it's nicer than fish and co hahas .. well i still prefer fish and co =P .. after dinner we went home cos he is having attachment from tmr onwards ..

though it's a short day with him but we still enjoyed each other company a lot.. he is so into licking my face today arggghhh though it's damn disgusting but i still love you no matter what (:

HAPPY 1ST YEAR ANNI TO YOU ! ((:

2008-08-11T23:27:00.002+08:00

TIME TO UPDATE MY LONELY BLOG (:

last saturday and sunday was awesome! i only got 4 patients out of 12 beds wahahahas .. it's very rare that room 24 can enjoy such a luxury .. and my 4 patients are very nice they do not complain much (: but well good times don't always last, today pm shift was crazy .. i got 4 to fetch back from OT and 3 new admissions woohoos nearly went mad but well still managable .. this isn't as bad as my other busy days when i can totally go mad and not even drink a sip of water .. but well tmr i will have to discharge like crazy cos' breast cases always stay for only one day after op and discharge the next day .. tmr is AM shift then i will off for 2 days yippee ! cant wait for my rest days cos' i can enjoy it with baby (:

13 more days to 24th august .. i got my off day on that day yippeee! gonna bake cuppies and prepare a small surprise for you (: hope you will love it wahahahahas .. till then ..

i am gonna sleep now .. nites people ! ZZZzzzzZZZZzzZZZ

2008-06-26T11:03:00.004+08:00

today marks the day that i am with him for 10 months and 2 days .. but to me it seems like we have been together for a very long time .. been good all this while not much arguments and quarrels which is a good thing =) love him to the bits, he never fail to make me smile each time i see him ..
10 reasons why i love him:
1) his tickles; though sometimes his tickles is like pinching and it hurts but i still enjoy it =P
2) when he hugs me to sleep, it feel so warmth and i feel so protected (:
3) when he kiss me on my forehead, to me it feels so good (:
4) he always fetch me home after work no matter how tired is he (:
5) his licks; yeahs he is very sicko at times especially when he licks my nostrils whahahahahahahahahas =X
6) his shoulder; always there for me to lean on when i am sad or happy or even when i am sleepy =X
7) his body scent; he always smell so good except when he smokes then that's an exception ..
8) his listening ear; he always listens to my complains and whining (:
9) his simple messages; never fails to cheer me up (:
10) and of cos the love and care he showers on me (:

I LOVE MY MR TAN !

work have been fine though it was damn busy on monday but thank god i had my rest day on tuesday and wednesday .. i will be strong and hang on ! i am not those who will give up easily though at times i am really on the verge of giving up ..it's okies i always tell msyelf tmr will be a better day (:

2008-06-20T11:12:00.003+08:00

i know i am not the only one who regret being bonded there are ppl out there thinking the same as me .. well well just got to perservere what to do .. and have to learn to love my job though i feel it's difficult but i shall try .. yeahs i am always making wrong choices in my life including this but i feel there is no use regretting over it cos' there's no more turning back of time =( i have been crying for no reasons guess i am just pms-ing as usual but crying and saying everything out makes me feel better thats the way i ventilate my feelings .. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-17T11:38:00.004+08:00

this question have been in my mind 24/7 ever since i started work-''why am i so dumb to be even bonded?'' this is the question in my mind which i cannot get rid off .. work is so stressful really damn stressful =( i keep telling myself if i can turn back time i wouldnt have signed that bloody bond so that i can have the freedom to quit this damn job .. nursing is really a super T-O-U-G-H job !~ i'm so scared on one fine day i might get into depression .. i am so dreaded to go to work .. i told my mummy if you strike lottery and win 30k please give me the money i will go and break my bond immediately =( .. baby ask me not to be silly cos i don't have the money to pay them back and yeahs i have to tolerate the stress that i am facing everyday and slog for another 3 yrs thats so horrible ! people surrounding me keep telling me that 3 yrs will fly past us very fast one but they don't know the feeling of waiting for 3 yrs to fly pass is actually very tough !

but i keep telling myself after 3 yrs i might look back and say ''thank god i didnt give up that easily cos' i've got 3 yrs of experience now and other organizations will be willing to employ me'' .. i chatted with june on sunday and i am so envy of her .. her work is not stressful, she have fun colleagues, good bosses and her pay is like so sky high ! i told her she should be grateful that her mum didnt allow her to bond hahas .. i told her i am not enjoying what i am doing now but the passion for nursing is still there though .. she said ''ren'' for 3 yrs very fast over one .. yeahs i 've got no choice but to tolerate for 3 yrs and get out of the place .. i prefer working in private clinic cos you dont have to face unreasonable family members who think they are always right ! and and and it's office hours and i get my saturdays and sundays off (: well well well i shall just serve my 3 yrs bond faithfully for now but may god bless me so i won't end up in IMH or going into depression =(

afterall, i still wish i have 30K with me right now so i can break my damn bond ! (but dream on)

2008-06-13T16:55:00.004+08:00

arrrgghhh baby is away from SG, right now he is enjoying life at china guangzhou ! though it's not some fascinated place i will go but how i wish i can be there to be with him .. sadly, i am in SG working =( it's so tiring to work gosh ! everytime i am morning shift i will be skipping break times and toilet times .. i think one day i will get UTI and gastritis =X i was telling ting after 3 damn years i am getting out of the hospital ! i don't want to stress myself up hahas .. i want to work in private clinics which is office hours but oh wells who knows what the future brings ~

4 more days for him to be back ! the day when he's back i am working noon shift +_+ thought of fetching him from airport but don't think i can do so .. shall just endure till wednesday to meet him =(

*sadded* and i am missing you like crazy baby boy !
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2008-05-18T23:21:00.002+08:00

went back to the place where i used to go to clear my thoughts, this time i tell myself let god decide where he wanna bring me to, its very tiring and hurting to pick up broken pieces all by myself, it's even worst when you are not appreciated by the things you do and trying to change to be a better person yet they don't see it .. i used to go against nature and thinks that i can change everything to be better one but guess i have been decieving myself cos' i am not happy at all by doing all these .. yet it leads to double the trouble .. hurting words comes out from their mouth causing more pain in me .. sometimes i wish i can just disappear into thin air so i don't have to pick up all these broken pieces alone .. it takes two hands to clap, when the other person doesnt clap with you, things won't work out .. yes everyone of us have some ego inside us but don't ever let it overtake your mind and heart cos it can rip beautiful things apart .. i questioned myself am i ever happy or just because i am blinded by one word - love .. i have yet to seek for the answer but hopefully i am really happy with what i have am now ..

i know it's never good to compare cos' each of us are special we have our weaknesses but is the word sorry so difficult for them to say? is admitting your fault when it is instead of pushing the blame to others so difficult to do? why other ppl can do it but some of us cant? that's weird ..

just some random thoughts (:

2008-05-04T00:16:00.003+08:00

i want to go to the crocodile farm !!! don't know why got the sudden urge to see crocs whahahahahas =X singapore is really a boring place there is no where to go .. argggghhh !!!

yeahs iron man is a nice movie, the story line wasn't as bad as i thought (: i am sure there will be iron man 2 WOOHOOSSS ! the graphics and effects are so cool ! totally amazed by it but too bad it doesn't exist in real life hahas ..

work hasn't offically started cos' it's only orientation now and we are just having lectures .. yeahs the nurse educator told us we will go thru' a phase of ''shock'' .. and it will last for 1 to 2 months before we start to adapt to the working process .. so scary but guess every staff nurse have to go thru' this i can't run away from it .. yeahs i still don't know which ward am i going +_+

2008-04-26T00:30:00.002+08:00

okies .. mr tan and i are finally back together after days of seperation .. hopefully this time round things will turn out well (: .. don't want to lose him ever again ! trying my best to change to be a better girlfriend =)

for the past few days when we were not together, i keep thinking life is unfair to me .. but during that period of time i really see who are my real true friends, yi ting, aliff, clement really never failed to stand by my side during that difficult period of time .. they accompanied me through the night just to ensure that i am alright, they tried to force me to eat cos' i really didn't eat at all during that period of time, even though ting and aliff were tired, they kept themselves awake to accompany me .. i was really touched very very very touched ! and not forgetting saab, mama, ashraf and fique, they rush down to clementi to find me cos' they worry i will get into trouble since i am alone outside hahas but well i was at home already =X hui yi was also really worry about me hahas, she said i nearly gave her a heart attack .. thanks girl though you was so troubled with your problems but you are still caring towards me (:

well how can i forget my baby, though we were friends for that few days, he still cared a lot for me, he still worry about my whereabouts maybe thats why i couldn't let him go and that made my life more miserable ..

BUT that's all the past ! what matters is now and the future (: i am gonna cherish this relationship with my life and never let the same mistake or let history repeat itself !

I LOVE YOU BABY ! (:

2008-04-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

can someone just shoot me right thru my heart and let me die .. i don't want to live on this earth anymore i just want to disappear from here .. there are too much pain too much till i cant handle it myself .. i have to bear the pain of losing him is already bad enough and now another harsh reality awaiting me to accept it .. i want to run away as far as i can ..

i can no longer pretend to be strong i can no longer do that ..

2008-04-22T11:49:00.007+08:00

boo these 2 days slept for only 6 hours but miraculously i am not tired hahas cos' i am like a pig i have to sleep for at least 10 hours a day .. yesterday i spent the whole day outside, it's really a good distraction therapy hees cos' at least i won't think too much and cry like one kuku .. met ting for dinner at pizza hut then all of the sudden got the urge to sing hahas so we went kbox at clementi sing from 7 till 1115 WOOHHOOOOS so shiok ! BUT also had a good time crying whenever i sing emo songs hahas while ting entertaining herself like some siaos char bo =X ..

throughout the day i switched off my phone so i will not keep looking at it hoping there will be a sms from him .. guess i will just do that for the rest of the days, it really works (:

after kbox off we go to west coast, found a good spot to sit down and talk by the sea .. hahas didnt cry much this time round though everytime i talk to ting about the happy times we had in taipei, tioman, ipoh, underwater world and at sentosa, tears just welled up in my eyes holding back and fighting back my tears .. i tell myself i cannot cry =( okies side track a little bit, yesterday night got this pervert masturbating behind us EEEEEWWWWW damn disgusting, a little bit scared he will attack us from behind =P but went aliff came he immediately left PHEW ..

yeahs didnt expect him to message me and call me to ask where am i, well i should be contented that at least he cares but i know it's a friend to friend care .. but i told ting i was happy hahas sound so stupid =X

aliff drove us to this ''mama'' coffee shop along harbour front road and we drank teh tarik yummy =P we chatted for hours then decided to head back to mac cos' ting hungry mahs PIG ! she eat and eat non stop hahas .. yesterday we went pizza hut she ate at least 3 to 4 slices of pizza, i cant even finish 1 slice though i am hungry but no appetite .. my appetite decrease by a lot and really a lot nowadays this is a good time to JIAN FEI ! wahahahahahas ..

before heading to my house, i chatted with ting about her r/s and i chatted mine .. i felt guilty cos' when i heard that ting can ''hong'' ashraf but i never do so and she can call ashraf every night but i always complain about calling him cos' if he calls me i can lie on my bed comfortably instead of sitting at the living room sofa .. yeahs i felt i didnt do much about this but well i told myself if i ever have a bf again i will not let these happen i will be more initiative and i know guys need to be pampered at times too (:

My to do list for this week, it's packed and i am happy with it (: -

Today- going out later to accompany aliff to town and queensway to buy his things, go with ting to bukit merah to collect her salary, head to granny house to collect yiping pressie cos' cousin left it there, go to chinatown to buy some things ..

Wednesday: slack at home first then at 5pm meet ting for dinner at bukit batok, accompany her till she starts work (:

Thursday: going out with ting and ping to west mall cos ting need to work so cant go out to somewhere further ..

Friday: hopefully fique, saab, maesh are willing to stay overnight at the airport so that we can send ting and ashraf off .. and i didnt want to be at home (:

Saturday: meeting him cos i initiated it, just enjoy my day cos' it may be the last meet up hahas .. giving back things to him like his vcd, luggage key, and his basketball jersey .. give him back everything once and for all cos ' at least it doesnt give myself a reason to want to meet him again .. unless he initiated it .. i tell myself i have to smile even if i feel like crying .. to show him i am strong even when i am not (: i didnt want to cry cos' it make me sound like some despo wanting him back again .. i have thought it thru' just let nature takes it's course i cant force things that are not meant to be mine, to be mine ..

Sunday: most probably going queensway to buy a pair black color track shoes for work and maybe walking around alone to waste time off

Monday start work ! +_+ so dreaded hahahahahas (:

oh yeahs i just got to know that maesh, ashraf, fique and saab rode their motorbike and trying to find where am i on sunday hahas cos' i didnt went home straight from his house i went to somewhere near my house wanting to cool down but i didnt tell ting where i go and she was so worried, ting told them to find me =X hahas super duper touched really (: these are really true friends hees ..

guess you have move on from this pain quite fast, while i remain stasis there, maybe just one fine day my heart is willing to let go and move on but when will that day arrive?

2008-04-21T06:31:00.003+08:00

it's 630am early in the morning i couldn't get to sleep .. the moment i open my eyes tears just roll down, i feel like an idiot .. life is so unfair why did it happen at this time when work is starting soon and i have to pick up myself fast by this sunday cos' i dont want it to affect my work .. yeahs it's no longer schooling, it's really working .. i am scared, i don't know will work stress + this thing makes me go bonkers ..

i tried to sleep but i can't, i went to bed at 1 i cried and cried till i don't even remember what time did i close my eyes, and just when i was deep asleep i dreamt about the happy times in tioman trip, i woke up from my dream, yeaps it's all just a dream and i am right here sitting in front of my computer crying again .. i tried to stop but everything around me seems to remind me of him ..

even simple things like moving his contact under '' all my darlinz'' to ''friends'' seems so difficult for me, when i saw his msn nick no longer have ''boy love girl'', i manage to move him to ''f'riends'' but once he offline i cried again and move him back to where he originally was .. msn is such an idiot i tried to change my display pic but it didnt allow me to ..

i want to delete the photos but i couldn't bring myself to do so all i do was just to look at them and smile while crying .. i still cant bear to change his name in my phone to keen hong .. it's still baby cos' i just feel yesterday was just another quarrel, today everything will go back to it's orginial place .. but i know it will never be the same ..

i want to tell him i miss him i really really do i want to tell him i want him back i dont want this r/s to be gone just like that, i want to tell him i am not happy being like that, i want him back .. back into like how when we first started .. but i didnt dare to sms me, yeaps my first time not being able to press 'send' to him .. i don't want to affect him cos' he is schooling today, i dont want him to know i need him badly cos' i keep telling myself i have to be strong at least in front of him, i want to show him i can still move on though i know i am not moving anywhere, i dont want him to find me a nuisance or an irritating person that keep spamming his inbox .. i want to show him without him i can still live on .. but i cant i really cant ..

only the person who make you cry, can make you stop crying ..

2008-04-21T01:11:00.004+08:00

yeaps .. we are officially over .. i promise myself i will be strong at least in front of him .. tears still keep flowing unknowingly after so long but i promise i will never again cry in front of him ..

i don't know how is life gonna be .. i have to adapt single life all over again .. i have to go thru' emotions turmoil all over again .. i have to go thru' shitty days all over again .. yeaps i feel i have dropped to the bottom pit unable to climb out from it, i feel like shutting myself from the rest of the world, i wish that when i wake up tmr all was just a nigthmare that never happened but i know i will be decieving myself cos' in reality it did happen, i know i can't run from it forever .. but right now i just want to keep running from everything till i get tired i will stop ..

yeaps no more you .. that how life gonna be ..

i dunno how am i gonna lead a life without mr tan in life, he plays an important role in every tiny bits of my everyday .. can someone just shoot right thru my brain so that i can forget everything?

now all i wish is there will be a turn back for both of us but i know it's difficult .. i need you back badly, can you see it, can you hear it? =(

2008-04-14T23:57:00.003+08:00

everything is solved, we talk it and we cry it out, everything is back to normal (: wooooohhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooos !!!! never gonna let this happen again ..
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2008-04-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

you can just simply give an excuse that you are tired and when i ask you why didnt even message me the whole day .. if you can have the energy to play basketball with your friends till 11 in the night why can't you even give 1 minute to your gf, at least drop me a message will make me feel good cos' i know you care .. you said i went out with friends i didnt tell you then did you even bother to tell me .. always wait till i messaged you then you are willing to open up your golden mouth to talk .. no not even talking on the phone i remembered we didnt talk on the phone for a long time cos you always say you are tired so fine .. or even i sms you, you reply me with less than 5 words ..

keep asking me for his number cos you wanna confront him, i didnt want to give you .. told you i scolded him already .. you answer me in such a sarcastic way ''is this call scolding'' .. yeahs at least i know how to defend you i didnt close my golden mouth and not fight back for you ..

i didnt know what's i did so far are all my fault .. you told ting it's seriously not your fault this time .. yeahs so be mine then cos' it has always been like that .. whatever i say you will definitely have something to argue back so what for i talk .. your friends said i am bad-tempered, see who is the one with the bad temper now..

2008-04-12T00:21:00.000+08:00

tears just keep flowing down .. i am pissed off with everything .. everything in my life !!!!!!!!!!!!! argghhhhhhhhhh

2008-04-08T15:21:00.002+08:00

why does a relationship always comes to a point that it gets stale .. the girl or boy will start to wonder if i really understand him/her.. if i really want you or it's just another relationship that is gonna end soon .. it gets very tiring to try to understand a person .. it's so weird, when a girl and a boy just got into a relationship everything doesn't seems to matter .. everyday is like honeymoon for them but as time goes by, they realise they just doesnt suit each other and they have all the while been blinded by love ..

well i am just bored, so these thoughts just run through my mind ..

Labels: Random thoughts

2008-03-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

yeaps yeaps it's time to update my secluded blog whahahas (: i was away from Singapore to Taiwan from the 15th-2oth march which is last week .. it's super fun .. why i say that? cos' the clothes designs are very different from singapore and i had a good time shopping at shi lin and wu fen pu BUT not all the clothes are cheap .. well for certain designs it's worth it =P .. the foods there are super super delicious (:

15th March
We cabbed down to changi airport at 10am, then checked in at 1030am .. went to have lunch at a food court, and it's my first time eating a plate of chicken rice that cost me 6 bucks super ex can but i am hungry and craving for that so i just buy it =X after eating walked around at DFS, baby took some photos of him and his ''best friend''-ciggarattes wahahahas (: .. we boarded the plane at 1230 noon .. before that we were so bored that we took some pics (:

When we are on the plane i was so excited, i can't wait to go Taipei ! .. took pics of the aeroplane taking off and the views from high up in the sky (: baby was ignoring me cos' i am like some ''sua ku'' hahas but who cares i love the views from high up hahas and though it's not the first time i am taking an airplane =P .. oh yeahs baby was super pissed off with jetstar cos' he kept complaining the seat is uncomfortable and it's super squeezy .. what's to do? his family always fly in SIA of cos it's much more comfortable than budget airline rites? spoilt boy ! =X.. we ordered nasi lemak which cost us 8 bucks .. damn ex we finished it up not leaving a single grain hahahas (:

After 4 hours of flight, we reached Taoyuan airport at around 5.40pm and it's 19 degrees outside .. thought it's just 19 degrees but the moment i stepped out of the airport it was freezing cold for me GRRRRRRR !!! we took a mercedes private cab to our hotel and yeahs the uncle is very nice and courteous (: guess what? the windows are all bullet proof !!! cool rites?!!! whahahahas i feel like i am the president and the mercedes is big and comfy .. oh yeahs forgotten to mention it's my first time riding in a merc whahahas =P .. and the top of the merc can be open up .. i stick my head out of the top and i tell you it's super duper windy and freezing cold i couldn't take it cos' my eyes are tearing whahahahas ! oh yeahs it cost us 1100 TWD=52.30 SGD but it's worth it hahas !

After a 45 mins ride we reached our hotel ! our hotel is situated at hsimen ting woohooooos right in front of our hotel are small little boutique shops, restaurants and cafes .. just a 5 min walk to the mrt station .. it's super convenient (: we checked into the hotel .. left our luggage in the hotel room and decided to explore hsimen ting ! since it's a saturday night, there are a lot of people mostly teenagers like us shopping and eating (: i went shopping too whahahahas ! hsimen ting is really a good shopping place and we bought food from those road stalls .. we tried the fried dumpling there, i love it ! but baby doesn't like it cos' there are many veges in it .. oh yeahs got to mention about this, baby was taking scooping the sauce for our dumpling, then suddenly the owner just push his cart running away .. guess why? cos' the police are here and those illegal stall holders were pushing their carts hiding away from the police whahahahas super exciting .. you can't see it in singapore bleahs =P we ate our dinner at this shop house, we tried their goose meat and eat it with beehoon soup .. it's yummy but the meat is a little tough (:

16th March
We woke up at 9am took a shower and left the hotel .. we took the mrt to taipei cityhall station and went to taipei 101 .. there is free shuttle bus from there but we have reached too early so we asked for directions and walked there (: took pics of taipei 101 !!! and yeahs on our way there, there is a cycling competition on the road .. baby was hoping someone will fall hahas +_+ and yeahs we paid 400 TWD each and off we go to the 89th storey of taipei 101 .. it's really super high up but the lift can bring us up there just within 37 seconds hahas cool rites? we looked at the view from high up there .. the cars and buildings below look like ''toys'' hahas and i fele like a i am giant looking at them wooohooos ! .. it's not the highest we walked up the stairs to the 91 storey (: and see the landscape and sceneries of taipei .. it's really beautiful but it will be better if we went in the night hahas ..

After taipei 101, we walked around in the mall and came across this high class cafe which have cakes that really tempt us and it's quite cheap so we decided to dine there (: baby ordered hot chocolate, and yeaps they don't serve hot choco to you instead they give you a cup of hot milk and you will have to place this piece of choco into to the hot milk and mixed it yourself .. creative idea rites? hahahas ! baby ordered apple strudel and i ordered cheese cake .. both are really yummy !

Guess whats? we took the mrt to makota zoo ! whahahahahas .. Singapore got zoo but we still decided to go there hahas =P .. the entrance fee is so cheap only 3 SGD, Singapore zoo is charging 20 SGD for adults !.. the main higlights are i saw Koala bears it's my first time anw hahas and i saw King Kong too ! but it's like super black i had a hard time finding the face hahas =P .. i took pic of it but it's like one big chunk of black thing so i deleted it away hahas .. oh yeahs the zoo is damn big really really big .. when we reached the other end we realised we had walked 1km already and we have to walk back ! boo it's super tiring !

Baby and i were so tired we took a cab back to the hotel hahas .. we rested for about 1 hour and off we go to shilin night market !!!!!!!! wooohooos it's really packed with people ! we ate bbq sotong and drank the bubble tea there .. then off we go to shop ! .. i can tell you it's a shopping heaven for girls really! i bought many many tops but only 1 dress which i don't know why hahas .. i bought bikini, leggings, ear studs and baby bought cigg box and lighter whahahahahahahas ! i shall post pics on that cos' too many things to mention here (:

17th March
We woke up at 10am, but dragged till 11 plus hahas .. we ate our breakfast cum lunch at the cafe near our hotel .. we ordered yummy food too shall post pics on that (: we went to wu fen pu to shopped for even more clothes, wu fen pu is like 5 to 6 times bigger than bugis street and yeahs as usual i bought many tops whahahas and baby too he bought many tops which his mummy said '' why all the t-shirt graphics look so scary?'' hahas cos' all are skulls graphics! hees .. i bought this checked shorts which is really nice for just 5 SGD that's one of my best grab from there (: .. we ate oyster mee sua there !!!! nice nice nice !~

In the night we went to this restaurant at hsimen ting to have our dinner, that place have those live bands and singers singing there .. it's has a very relxing atmosphere and we really like it (:

18th March
We woke up at around 11am (did u realise we are waking up later and later each day? hahas) and left the hotel .. coincidentally baby met 3 of his JC friends ! and at shi lin night market he met 1 JC friend too .. the world is real small !!! we went to the beitou hotspring and the water is really damn hot ! whahahahahahahas i couldn't really take the heat but oh wells .. with his accompany i still enjoy it (: after the hotspring bath we felt really sleepy so we back to the hotel to rest hahas ..

Huaxi night market is the place we went in the night (: it's only 1 mrt stop away from Hsimen mrt station .. okies we bought food from this roadside shops and guess what? we bought too many food and it's very heavy .. we haven't even walk to huaxi night market YET hahas so we decided to take the mrt back to the hotel and we went back there again .. sounds quite dumb i know hahas =X .. anyway we ate fried wild boar there ! the meat is really nice and i ate the XXL chicken - ''chao da qi pai'' really big i couldn't finish it hahas .. oh yeahs they sell puppies over there and it's only 170 SGD each !!!!!!!! arrrggghhh they are irresistibly cute BUT too bad we can't buy it home =(

19th March
We are supposed to meet baby's friends at 8am but we woke up at 930 and realise there are 7 missed calls from his friends .. luckily their friends just woke up too hahahahas .. we are going Yangming Shan ! we had taipei home made sandwich and fried dumplings together with milk tea for breakfast before setting off to YMS .. we took a cab there and yeahs it's not a pleasant trip up there because i sat on baby's lap and it's super squeezy +_+ .. when we got off the cap i can tell you it's freezing cold up there !!!!! and the wind is damn strong .. there is smoke coming out from our mouth when we are talking so can you imagine how cold is it hahas .. and yeahs baby and i are the only ones that wore slippers and our feet are freezing BRRRGGGGRRRRRR ! we took photos with a ''ying tao hua'' and pics of the waterfall .. we went to this tulip garden too .. the scenery there is really nice and the air is real fresh .. i was so amazed by it (:

20th March
HOME SWEET HOME !

2008-02-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

BOOO !!!!!! it has been a centuries since i blogged cos i don't have the inspirration to jote down in my blog .. hees okies everything is still the same .. except i am graduating real soon and cant ever imagine how will working life gonna be .. as a student nurse when u make a mistake the fault doesn't goes to you but your staff nurse BUT when you make a mistake as a staff nurse you will get all the scoldings and yankings .. arggghhh stress stress but i am enjoying the stress whahahahahahahas okies i am crazeee =P

baby is in bangkok with his family now .. how nice is it .. he can shop till he drop there but ironically he messaged me and said got nothing to shop ! whahahahahas if i were there with him i think he will shop till he cry cos i can stay in a shop for hours =X .. i was suppose to join them but its CNY i rather stay in sg and spend it with my whole family (: this year didnt collect much ang baos but i still enjoy the laughters and warmth when every one of us get together !

but its okies baby and i are going taiwan !!!!!! we have booked our flight and hotel 2 weeks ago yeaps yeaps so we are definitely going there ... whees !!!!!!! i cant wait to go and i am excited about it (: we will be away from 15th march till 20th march wohooosssss !

NOTHING IS GONNA BREAK US APART COS' OUTSIDERS DOESN'T KNOW HOW MUCH WE HAVE BEEN THRU' TOGETHER AND HOW MUCH EACH OF US HAVE BEEN THRU' ! I LOVE MY BABY AND IT WILL ALWAYS STAY THAT WAY (:

2007-12-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

baby and a school of fish

its called coconut crab

3D effect of a great white shark

baby feeding the stingray

shark !

our foot reflexology

jellyfish !

baby's stinky feet =P

i love you ! (:

i am still playing anagrammatic @ miniclip.com when it's already 0135am wahahahas cos i just cant sleep .. yeahs my holiday is suppose to end on sunday but because my rooster is in such a way that i have my rest days on monday and tuesday which means two more days of holidays wahahahahas ! then work for 3 days i will get my PH .. work for another 2 days i get my PH again then work for another 3 days i get to off on weekends ! wooohooos how great is that ! .. the bad thing is i don't get to off on 1st january new year but its alright i am contented with what is given to me =)

went to underwaterworld with baby on saturday .. it's was fun fun fun and fun ! .. we are able to touch fishes, stingrays and starfish .. we can even fed those giant stingrays wahahahahs it was actually quite scary cos those stingrays are super enthu when they see food however its a good experience .. there is this aquarium that has postive pressure in it so you can actually put your hand into the aquarium without water gushing out whahahahas cool rites .. and yeahs we took lots of photos ! =) .. oh ya there is this sea creature called the angelfish is super duper cute ! .. it really looks like an angel whahahas ! .. you should go to UWW to see it and experience the fun there .. it's very worth the money .. it only cost $13.90 per person including admission to the dolphin lagoon !

we went to this foot reflexology which they uses a type of fish that feeds on dead skin! at first when baby and i submerge our legs into the pool of fishes they will swim to you and nibble on your foot .. it's super ticklish .. we kept laughing like two crazy ppl whahahas ! .. but soon we got used to the sensation .. and yeshs all the fishes seems to like his feet .. they always swim towards his rather than mine .. maybe he got more dead skin whahahas =P .. the package include foot massage .. and its very comfortable and relaxing .. it helps to improve your blood circulation .. yeahs it cost us 35 bucks /pax but it's really worth the money (:

can't wait to see him tmr ! gonna watch movies at his house tmr yeahs ! .. thats how we spent our holidays cos we can't think of any other places to go hahas .. but there are two more places for us to go .. the animal republic and singapore reptile park but it has move to somewhere else which we have yet to find out ..

oh yeahs we have plan to go taiwan next year april after he comes back from his vietnam trip BUT hopefully i don't start work that soon *crossing my fingers & praying hard* .. i want to travel all over the world with him =)

2007-11-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

damn inconsiderate bloody neighbours .. they think my block is a clubbing area blasting their music to the loudest .. singing happy birthday song at the top of their voice .. arggghh ! idiots ! .. lukily tmr i am not working if not i will be walking to their door front and scold them ! feel like telling them eat shit and die (that's what i saw written on a t shirt in bugis today) hahahahahas i should buy, wear it and show it to them .. i was having a super bad headache pop two panadols extra and the pain is gone if not i will kill them for waking me
up from my beautiful sleep .. okies i shall stop complaining .. just my luck to have such idiotic neighbours ..

all of the sudden i thought of kelvin working night shift today in fact over the weekends too wahahahahas poor him i told him that i hope he sees ghosts today hahahahahahas =P i am so evil but its okies hahahas .. i wonder how would it be like .. hmmm must ask him so i will be more prepared .. i guess my night shift will only start during dec when i am back from my holis (: ..

during my 2 weeks holis i am gonna spent it to the fullest .. for the first week i am going to Ipoh - stephen's house to stay and play i guess hahas his house must be super big (that's just my imagination =P) .. going wakeboarding and bbq with the usual ppl .. going out with wendy, yi ting and yi ping cos she is treating me wahahahahahas actually not for that reason lars .. is because i really miss her ! seriously .. she is such a nice person to disturb, irritate, bully but above all that she is a very good friend =) .. luckily she don't know my blog .. if she reads this she is gonna laugh her head off cos i nvr said that to her before wahahahahahahas !

looking forward to morning so baby will wake up and reply my message .. suppose to stay out till late with him today but my headache was really bad and my diarrhea is horrible haiz .. damn must eat more charcoal or loperamide but it's not that effective .. whatever it is i just want to stop it .. going to science centre with him later yipppeee ! we seems to have many places to go .. well that's good at least i am not rotting away during my off days :) .. my next off days are thurs,fri and sat then sun evening shift argggh why cant they shift my off day from thurs to sun ao i can start my holis from fri wahahahahahas okies i shall stop whining about it .. they are already kind enough to give me back my PH (deepavali) =) .. watched ENCHANTED today with my big baby .. nice nice movie shall give it 3/5 stars hahas its worth watching it .. its touching and hilarious .. that chipmunk is damn cute but the prince is not handsome hahahahas =X the cockroaches are gross .. baby and i were like ''ewwww disgusting !'' cos both of us are afraid of cockroaches hahahahas .. watch it and you will know why we said that hahahas =)

2007-11-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

i cant bear to cute the cute and nice cake hahas ..

isn't it nice .. all thanks to baby =)

forgive me for posting your ugly photos but at least i didnt put it in friendster okies whahahahahahas ! =D

okies yi ting i am gonna update now wahahahas .. been so lazy to do so =P .. PRCP had started for 2 weeks .. kelvin.shuqin.sharon and feb re in charge of male rooms and i prayed so hard not to get female room yet so so suay i got posted to female room but luckily everything is going on well so far .. hopefully it will always be so smooth sailing for me .. my precpetor is very nice and super ''ba gua'' i can joke with her to past my time faster wahahahas .. but she can be strict and her expectations for me is high .. next monday onwards i am taking cases she wants to me to start with 6 cases WOOHOOS i am so gonna die hahas .. may god bless me =X ..

okies now i shall share some happy moments recently wahahas .. the main highlight is of cos my birthday and yi ting's birthday wahahahahas .. i shall upload ugly photo of hers =P .. i really want to thank my baby.ting.june.faliqh.addy.clare.saab.hanisah and inah for the birthday surprise .. whahahahahas super happy .. really .. hope you all enjoyed too (: .. ting ting ting thankiew for bluffing ars .. SO NICE OF YOU wahahahahas ! and i don't know what to say to thank you cos you have really been a very good fren and and and and and loves you lars whahahahas .. and baby thankiew for the cake its super yummy and thankiew for cracking your brains to plan a birthday surprise for me .. loves you my one and only =) .. june and ren qi thankiew for the board of messages and photos .. its really veri sweet of the both of you, it will be hang on my wall wahahahahas (: .. for the rest of the ppl thankiew for your pressies and your presence means a lot to me =) .. for those ppl who wished me via sms or friendster - eileen, aliff, my sister, fiona, ren qi, gerald, yi ping, hui yi, cuyan, jian he, rui fang, xue ting, muhaimin, karen(thankiew for your tops and cute little panty hahas), serene, wei xiong, ash, wendy and cynthia .. really thankiew very much i appreciate it a lot =)))))))))

happy birthday maesh and aliff ! .. the next person birthday is clement (didnt wish me HORS) =)

random comments: baby is sick right now he is like super duper hot when i touched him just now his temperature ranges from 38.1 to 39 like microwave =S .. his mummy very cute thank me for taking care of him when i didnt do much .. all i did is accompany him to sleep or to be precise i am the one sleeping wahahahahahahas ! =P hopefully he will recover real soon .. and stop saying its time for you to go arggghh i hate it .. dun make me cry again cos of that cos i never ever want to lose you =(

2007-10-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

damn stupid baby bought his N76 already argghh !!!~~~ not fair .. i am suppose to get it earlier than him but who knows his father is so ''on'' .. when mr tan keen hong say his hp is gonna spoil .. the father say okies lets go down and buy later .. argghhh .. and he hao lian to me hahahahas slap you !

my birthday is coming soon in 4 days time yipppeee ! ppl who dunno whats to buy fer me .. here is a list of things i want to make things easier fer my frens wahahahahahahas ..

1) mp3 (the samsung red color one)
2) perfume (sweet-scented one will be better)
3) medical dictionary a real good one with pics and closer to singapore context
5) skinny denim jeans
6) bags
7) i want a comfy heels

2007-10-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

i hate to be misunderstood ! arggghhh .. i was happily shopping in vivo today then someone called to spoilt my whole damn mood ..
she asked if my mum is at home ..
i told her i am not sure cos i left the house very early but when i left she wasn't at home ..
then she ask do i know where she goes ..
i said when i wake up she is already not at home ..
then she ask do u know where is she working now ..
i say ya i know .. at bukit timah plaza now ..
she ask me you dont know what time she goes to work or the days that she work? .. she said i didnt care about my mum ..
i replied cos mum didnt tell me .. i got to know it thru my sister that she change her job
she said i didnt care about my mum and i am still throwing my temper at my mum
i said i didnt .. i am still talking to her .. but i admit my r/s with her not as close as before though
she said i am the older daughter i should be more mature and not throwing my temper at her and care more about her after thta she hang up the phone

i was tearing and my heart hurts .. because i care for my mum but i am not those who express it out .. i do see her working hard to support my sister and i .. yeshs i admit i am always home late .. nowadays i don't communicate much to her cos i don't know what to talk to her about after that incident that she misunderstood me and we got into a terrible verbal argument .. i miss those times when i get home she will casually ask me how is work .. it really feels good cos this shows she cares about me .. but now she never mention about it .. maybe to her i treat my friends more important than my family while my sister is the good one that does the house chores for her and stay at home most of the time ..
i don't know what to do .. but i am tired of explaining cos the more i explain the worst and more complicated things get .. when these happens i will be further misunderstood ..

2007-09-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

went to vivo on sunday to buy my [M]phosis top and bought a b** wahahhahas .. went to watch Chuck & Larry .. its damn hilarious we kept laughing throughout the movie and there is this filippino beside us with an and moh laugh super loud and her voice is very sharp .. hees baby didnt notice that i was looking at him when he laugh .. super cute and also super ''qian bian'' face wahhahahas XD

we went toysrus and took some photos enjoy it (: (P.S. i know he is gonna kill me for posting the photos in my blog XP)

2007-09-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

we re sitting above the expressway (:

stop trying to squeeze your face into my photo =P
he was laughing at me for acting cute XD
a super unglam photo of us !
yum yum i like to eat his finger .. it's a nice delicacy (:

from him to her (:

happy one month anni ! (: .. still a long way to go but we shall hold on to each other, side by side we walk down the road that we re gonna face ahead ~ .. those quarrels doesn't weaken our relationship but instead it strengthen our relationship, it allows us to understand each other better so we can improve in areas that is affecting both of us =) .. thankiew for the portfolio that you did for me .. iloveyou !

2007-09-17T19:00:00.000+08:00

supper with darlings - yiting.ashraf.saab.taufiq.clare.ghaz.maesh.inah & boyfriend @ mr teh tarik =)
15/9 is <3.

in the cab on our way to my house @ 2 am hahahas !

photos taken @ esplanade =)

dinner @ bugis junction in seafood harvest on friday 14/9

this kinda of spactic expression makes me wants to slap him hahahahas !

he is not in singapore ! argghh .. he is right now in pahang enjoying himself while i am missing him like crazy in sg .. hopefully he do miss me too whahahahas =X ..

things to do when you re back in sg:

1) go wild wild wet alright ? never been there before hahas

2) go science centre. i saw esmond's blog it seems fun =P

3) go to church every sunday with me =)

4) oh yeahs .. start saving money together cos remember we re going to tour around malaysia with saab.hanisah.inah.maesh.ashraf.yi ting.taufiq and of cos ME whahahahas ! if possible go taiwan or bangkok next year !!!!!!!!!!!!!! =))))))

missing you lots my love (:

2007-09-11T20:30:00.001+08:00

hmmm right now i am having my attachment in OT .. okies it sucks .. really .. before i entered there i already didn't like it .. but when i go there i think its a little boring .. especially major cases when i am not familiar with the instruments and all of them look so alien to me .. then i will stand at a corner like some extra person blocking their way .. arrgghh i hate it ! .. and some of the staff nurses super attitude problem ewwwwww ! .. i prefer working in the ward or ED at least you get to do more hands on and you will feel that you are more useful there .. i scrubbed up once yesterday .. its a case of left breast excision to remove lumps .. luckily there are very few instruments i manage to scrape throught it hahahahas .. whatever the surgeons want i will just pass it to her .. though my passing techniques isn't that good but my SSN was beside me to guide me on how to pass the instrument lukily she is a nice staff nurse .. i am like so super scared that my PRCP or when i start working they will post me to OT .. i am so gonna die there .. really .. i really really pray hard they won't .. cos as i heard many staff nurses who didnt put OT as any of their choices got into OT instead of the wards they chose .. *PRAYING HARD*

met up with aliff, ting and clement at holland today .. yeahs its so fun being with them again .. its like going back to my poly days .. we can talk anything and joke with each other .. i admit that i do regret not signing bond with TTSH cos 3 of them are there and i am like alone in SGH though there is kelvin and saab hahahas .. but after all i still prefer SGH .. okies we are gonna meet up on friday again for supper =) .. for the meanwhile i will miss them ! (:

he just finish gym-ing hahas .. guess he wants to build up some muscles so that he can carry me wahahahahas ! .. missing you baby =)

random thoughts.

2007-09-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

on friday night we went to chinese garden to see lanterns ! okies i know veri sua ku but its my first time going there hahahahas =X .. the theme for this year is under the sea if i am not wrong .. and we went to the turtle museum .. i will upload photos to show you =)

OH YEAHS we went to the ZOO !!!! .. hahahahas its so fun fun fun .. i saw many many animals like the baby pgymy hippo its so damn cute ! .. baby baboon and the boss of the baboons hahahahas .. i saw one female with super swollen ass which means she is ready to mate =P .. and we ride on the elephant its also my first time ! .. we bought the photo and it cost 22 bucks .. expensive hors but only once in a lifetime thing hahas .. i will also upload pics =)

today we went to watched rouge assassin .. yeahs its a nice movie worth watching it =) .. if u like action movies with those stunts that makes you go WAHS .. you will like it =) ..

8 more days baby will not be in singapore =(

2007-09-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

okies my blog is collecting cobwebs soon so i decided to update hahas .. yeaps last week from 22nd til 26th august i was away from singapore to tioman in malaysia .. its super fun i enjoyed it totally .. but someone made it even more meaningful .. thats him =) .. on the 1st day we arrived quite late so we just slack at our chalet and ate dinner at one of the restaurants there and yeshs its yummy ! its isnt too expensive too and its worth the money .. the fresh pineapple juice there is refreshing =)

on the 2nd daywe went snorkelling and feed the fishes .. its like you can really touch them and their skin re so slimy .. and saw this steel fish with a long pointed thing on the head sawm past me and i freak out cos that thing on the head is so long and sharp .. but it doesnt bite hahas .. we went to two places to snorkel and its really tiring when we decided not to use the lifejacket hahas we sholdnt have taken off the life jacket stupid us well well its a first time experience and i dun mind snorkelling again cos not only do you see beautiful fishes with multiple colors but also coral reefs and we saw one huge jellyfish and a small purple jellyfish .. i was in awe like sua ku wahahahahas =X

on the 3nd day, we climbed up this big big big big rock and he took photos of me from below .. its quite high up around 2 storeys high .. but from there you can see the view of paya beach resort and the sea .. its magnificent BUT scary cos i dunno how to climb down and there is big monitor lizards there hahas ..

in the evening we decided to slack at the beach .. we went sun tanning and we were waiting for sunset .. while waiting for sunset we took many many photos .. and guess what the water there is so shallow and its crystal clear .. you can walk very far away from the shore in the water without drowning wahahahas .. but there many rocks .. we tried to walk since so many people re doing it .. BUT the rocks re like hurting our feet so we decided not to go further wahahahas .. and when sunset comes .. its veri beautiful i took many photos of it hahas =) .. in the night we went back to the same restaurant and ordered crab, stingray, claypot tofu with mushroom then we drank alcoholic drinks .. i drank 'sex on the beach' and he drank 'cosmopolitan' .. yeahs his drink is super horrible .. taste like medicine though the name sounds nice whahahahas ..

on the 4th day its time to go back to singapore .. yeaps i really miss that place .. cos its very peaceful and the people there are very friendly .. the ramly burger there is delicious !!!!! .. and you must taste their ice ball and ice kachang .. they add milo powder on the ice kachang and it taste really good =)

and on the 24th august its a day that i will never forget .. a day that is special and is kept close to my heart .. thankiew for enetring into my life .. ilovesyou =)))))))))

i have uploaded some photos =)

one of my emo days

2007-08-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

as i look through the pictures in my friendster and those in my desktop .. i miss the days when i hang out with my friends to chat and to talk anything under the sun .. but those days seems to vanish .. there is no more any such hangouts with them .. yet friends who aren't that close have always include me into their hangouts .. isn't this contradicting .. i am not refering to any particular group of friends but in general friends that i considered close to my heart .. maybe it's me who have changed or i have drift away from them .. sometimes i wonder we re all graduating .. we will be going to different paths in life .. will things ever be the same again?

if one day i just need a friend to talk to or share my problems with .. will there be anyone willing to lend me their listening ear or shoulder to lean on? .. and yes i ask myself do i actually have true friends that exist in my life? .. most people are very superficial .. they may say ''don't worry i will always be there for you'', '' i will support whatever decisions you make'' but do they mean it when they say it ..

it hurts when friends become strangers to you .. i guess this is just part and parcel of life .. your life can never always be like a fairytale - ''live happily ever after'' ..

okies let me post something happy hahas .. yesterday went to eat dinner with mum and sister to have an advance birthday celebration for my sister .. we ate @ pariss international seafood buffet @ taka .. the variety there is so little and the quality of the food isn't up to standard .. i still prefer the outlet @ marina square but its under renovation .. we took many pics and there is one photo of my mum with choclate smeared onto her mouth which made my sister and i laugh our heads off ! its been a long time we sit together as a family to eat and laugh .. yeahs i enjoyed yesterday dinner :)

mixed feelings.

2007-07-24T01:53:00.000+08:00

i am blogging cos i cant sleep .. i dunno why am i still so awake and energetic @ 1.55 am .. he is sleeping rites now like a pig in his lala land whahahas .. went to watch invicible target .. it is a nicee show with a little of humour, fighting stunts, friendships, killing and betrayal .. i wanted to watch it cos there is shawn yue in the movie whahahas he is so handsome =P ..

got to know my attachment postings today .. well all the way in sgh for 10 weeks .. thank god i am in da same ward as kelvin, saab and june togther with some other ppl .. wahahahas .. hopefully with them it will make this attachment more fun especially with saab lame jokes =__=" hahas .. and yeshs ! we re going to ward 52B .. the ward that kelvin saab and i want to work in hopefully we will have our prcp posting there .. yeshs yi ting is damn lucky she got so many of my classmates with her arggghh .. damn should have bond with ttsh wahahahahahas .. joking .. i have never regretted my decision =P

looking forward to shopping and dinner @ fish&co with ting on wednesday .. i want to get more tops, bags, shoes and many many many things =)

2007-07-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

arggghhh ! .. feeling so ill my body is like burning in the afternoon .. he went to da doctor with me .. the doctor said my body is like an oven wahhahahas .. but my temperature wasn't as high as i expected .. thank god he was there with me cos i really felt damn terrible .. he accompanied me home and stayed fer awhile till i am awake .. wahahahas so nicee of him =) .. yeahs suppose to use this as a diet plan cos i am feeling sick got no appetite .. BUT i felt so damn hungry and was craving for sliced fish bee hoon soup at 10pm .. yeahs he bought food fer me and i ate at my void deck hees .. how sweet can he be .. hees lalalalalala =)

febrile febrile febrile febrile ! =(

2007-07-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

i am happy really happy .. cos i am talking with june again wahahahas ! .. actually nothing happened between us but suddenly just didnt talk well now we re fine wahahahas so happy =) .. anyway june .. you will not be da last to know .. you will be da 2nd last wahhahahahahahas ! .. okies lurvees you =) ..

life is unpredictable .. you will never know what tmr brings thats why i am living my life each day to my fullest !

2007-06-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

okies first let me wished saab a happy belated 27 birthday ! okies its not 17 its 27 wahahahahahas so old OMG hahahas .. today saab.hanisah.fique.ashraf.ting.maesh.kh and i we celebrated saab birthday hees @ lau pat sat hahahahas okies my 1st time celebrating a fren's birthday there cos its usually at some restaurant or esplanade hahas BUT its was fun hahahas .. we ordered sambal stingray.sotong.cereal prawns.lala.gong gong (i know da name is weird).kang kong and satay yummy ! .. i eat till i nearly explode .. then hanisah gave saab a surprise by baking cheese cake for him its veri nicee .. i think i can never ever baked one hahas =X .. oh yeahs we took lotsa of pics hahas as usual then we walked to esplanade sat down and chat =)

before ting.ashraf.kh and i head down to lau pat sat .. we were @ peninsula shopping centre and YES its where nic's mummy shop is .. i took a peek from far and he turn his head to my direction but i dun think he saw me .. well my heart pounded super fast .. now i understand how ting feel hahas .. then kh walked up to da shop outside pretending to see watches cos he wants to see how he looks like .. he saw nic playing PSP hahas okies no comments .. well i dunno why i just felt my heart sank to da bottom pit ARGGGGHHHHH ! i hate this kinda of feeling damn it .. throughout da day his image keep flashing thru' my mind damn it .. maybe cos for too long i didnt see him .. its like since 30th march yeaps if i am not wrong .. okies enuff litang its enuff !

whatever it is .. i will not go back

feeling: ARRGGGGHHHHH !~ =(

2007-06-14T17:51:00.000+08:00

okies there is a problem with my hair now .. i went to cut bangs on tuesday .. i cant exactly say i regret it cos at least i tried if not i will never know how it turns out to be .. ting say i look fresher but i think i look like some PRC wahahahas gosh .. okies i still prfer my previous fringe .. but its okies i am not gonna regret =

WHEES i cant wait fer tmr wahahahas .. today is a boring shit day nothing to do at home its like worst than having attachment .. okies this morning i got a cold i think i gotten it from him then had a slight fever i took piriton and slept like a pig =X .. suppose to go to da polyclinic today but i didnt .. was too sick to move but i am fine now wahahhas =)

yesterday rai. rianah.clement.ashraf.ting.hanisah.saab.kh and me gave taufiq a 20th birthday surprise wahhahas .. i guess he was veri shocked but i saw him smiling so happily whahahas cos is his girl plan one wads hahahas .. saab was saying when taufiq turn 40 yrs old we need to get him a hearing aid cos we all know rai talk super loud ya thats why hahas ..

yesterday ting and i from the esplanande roof top we manage to see da new floating stadium .. gosh its damn magnificent hahas .. on national day plus da fireworks WOOOW i think its gonna be damn damn damn damn nicee ! hahas ..

2007-06-13T10:00:00.000+08:00

the reality is cruel .. sorry i have to be cruel to you ..

anyway happy birthday to taufiq =)

2007-05-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

this is how hardworking he can be wahhahahahas ! he didnt purposely pose this pic fer me i took it when he didnt notice it hahas =P

anyway happy birthday stephen ! 19 years old already hors wahahahas older than me =P ..

2007-05-19T11:14:00.001+08:00

okies it has been a long long time since i blogged cos i was too lazy to come online and my msn got some stupid technical probs ppl couldnt chat with me and when i chat with some ppl da msg couldnt be delivered to them .. but its solved now hopefully ..

yesterday kh and i went to eat suki sushi .. wanted to eat their buffet but it ended at 530pm so we just ordered ala carte .. and we talked a lot of things .. our childhood.da stupid things we do when we re young and our past relationships hahas .. and yeahs i found out something shocking about him .. HE KNOWS HOW TO PLAY DA PIANO ! ppl who knows him will find it damn shocking hahahahas .. imagine a CAB plays da piano i think all of us will faint hahahas =P okies and yeahs he ask me another thing which surprise me he ask me to take neoprints with him yesterday hahahas damn funny lars .. its da first time a guy ask me to take with him .. cos i thought usually is da girl that is enthu in such thing .. okies maybe he has some female hormones in him =X hahas .. i was reluctant at first cos i dun like to take pics with my hair tied up but guess wads .. da pics turn out good ! hahas and we did some stupid actions hahas =)

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This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game.Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

* i always have sudden weird cravings for food even though when i am full .. i can feel veri full fer this minute da next thing you know i am eating again hahahas =)

*okies frens who knows me will know this .. i can shit immediately after i eat maybe i got good bowel system hahahas =)

*all girls lurvee salads rites cos they think its healthy and can use as a diet tool BUT i totally disagree i find it yucky eeeks even coleslaw i dun like it ! =)

*when i get sun burnt i will sleep topless cos u know when da shirt rub onto ur skin it hurts .. anyway its all girls in my house so it doesnt matter whahahahas =X

*i like ppl to piggyback me.pat my head when i am feeling emo and i fall asleep easily lying on my fren's shoulder hahahas maybe cos i am a pig in my previous life =)

*i am not that kinda of person that get angry fer a long time .. 5 mins later i will be fine hahahas (maybe frens dunno that )

1) keen hong

2) aishah

3) fiona

4) june

5) ren qi

6) hui yi

2007-05-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

my favourite song by jojo .. argghhhhh i am addicted to it ! i think this song is meaningful i think every girl will go thru such a phase hahahas =)

Mmm
I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight
Feel somethin happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel somethin happenin?
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
Ooh I'll be givin all my love to you
Ohh
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl? (Yeah, yeah)
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

2007-05-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

okies right now I am super duper tired and i know its already near 2am but I think this entry is gonna be a long one cos it will consist of yesterday and today entires hahas .. I have just finish editing da pictures that I took today with my darlings and with ting during our bcls lesson wahahas =)

okies yesterday was a BAD day really .. I say things I shouldn’t have said that make me feel so paisehs when seeing him .. I cried while jogging don’t ask me why cos I felt dumb after that .. I forgotten all about my assignment and was rushing to finish it and I think I didn’t do it well cos I am quite OCD when comes to my standard of work I want it to be perfectly done .. I had headache and caught a cold and yeshs da headache was superbly pain I cant stand it my pain score at that moment should be 8-10 .. all these uneventful things took place yesterday shitty day !!!~~ arrrgghh ..

BUT its okies I always believe there is a rainbow after a rainy day hahas .. today is FUN FUN FUN ! fer our nsl lesson today we go to da simulation room and we re suppose to act in this case scenario .. da whole procees was videoed down .. and I can tell you its damn hilarious cos all of us panick ! hahas and we we do things in our “innovated” way okies shall not elaborate cos its damn malu but I can say I enjoyed laughing at my friends thru da glass window hahahahas and I think they enjoyed laughing at me too hees =P

YEAHS I met my gurls today yipppeee .. its been a long long time since we get together but today pei xin is missing due to some family prob but well we still enjoyed ourselves it will be better if she is around hahas .. anyway today we went to surf n turf at suntec to have our dinner okies I have to say da food is horrible hahas not really as nicee as I thought but well we had a whole lot of fun taking pictures.suanning each other. talking about da things we have missed out on each other since we didn’t meet fer so long.talking about da day june and I got drunk and our scandals wahahahas well when 4 girls get together its like a fish market whahahas =P
after dinner we went up to da suntec fountain and it was my first time going there okies I know I am kuku but its really nicee hahas and there re so many couples there well such a romantic place bound to see a lot .. we took pics .. then this ang moh offer to help us take cos he saw us having difficulty taking pics but da weird thing is he always take a long time to take our photos I dunno wads wrong with him .. its like we re smiling and waiting fer him to just snap a pic but he just take far longer than usual so june and I bth and we burst out laughing hahahas .. then he took photo with hui yi and I okies I felt a little uncomfortable cos its my first time allowing a total stranger holding so tightly onto my waist hahas hmmmm ..

Then we head towards esplanade cos there is this stupid couple laughing at us .. damn is there a problem with them anyway we didn’t bother .. and yeahs there are many ppl at esplanade so we walk further down to the merlion and yeahs we did stupid things there gosh I feel so dumb thinking about it now but we have FUN hahahahahahas ! .. over there we took pics and more pics =) I really enjoyed myself a lot hoping there re more of such hangin’ outs next time cos when all of us start working it is quite impossible to meet up so often .. I L.U.R.V.E.E you girls veri veri veri veri veri veri much !!!!! =)

okies when I was on my way home at my void deck I saw this guy roller blading I saw him on a few occasions already hahas and I think he is cute wahahahahas but not interested though hahahas =P
okies I am off to sleep I only have 7 hours left to sleep damn my eye bags re appearing again arrrgghh ..

okies i came across this today .. "Do not bring me up so high and not being there to catch me when I fall" .. =(

2007-05-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

okies i know i shouldnt be blogging this .. but i feel i wasnt true to myself when i said those words just now .. gosh i feel like a TOTAL CRAP .. litang is a TOTAAL CRAP !!!!!! .. its okies i am not thinking about it now .. trying .. okies i feel better after saying it out .. off to sleep hahas =)

2007-05-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

okies today after having dr tim murray lesson i felt super duperly stupid cos it seems like i dunno much .. really i felt so dumb fer da first time in year 3 .. i panic i really do cos i think there is a calling .. telling me ''litang its time to study ! no more shopping and fooling around !'' gosh i am scared really i think i need to start studying on weekends since no bf now got even more time for myself wahahahahahas okies i know veri lame ..

a fren messaged me just now telling me he is sorry cos he feels he has done many things to hurt me .. i freak out cos he say he is crying .. no its not nicholas in case you thought it is .. if its him i will feel bad and sad cos i think i hurt him more than he hurt me okies but this is not da point .. anyway that fren apologize to me and i told him god created us in such a way that we re imperfect people .. each of us has our own flaws and why not use your postive points to make da best out of it rites ? .. am i wrong to say that hahas .. i dunno maybe i make him feel worst ..

anyway to those who wants to ask me why i can get over nicholas so fast or whatever blah blah blah .. i can only say dun judge me from da outside think whatever you want .. da problem is those who ask me this qs re those who re not there when i am nt feeling okies at all .. da worst is when a close fren of mine says i look so normal like nothing has happen .. maybe i always put up a brave front in front of ppl but maybe thats me .. i dun like to show out da emo side of me .. i dun want to be a wet blanket to frens around me really i rather put up a brave front than to show out my feelings .. i am not a direct person i am always indirect in expressing my feelings on those relationship stuffs .. i guess only really true frens know how i feel and thats enough i appreciate that =)

trust me .. you re a nicee person that people yet to discover =)

2007-05-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHESTER BOY !~ today clare.theinesh.stephen.kadir.kh.harry.june & i we went to fish & co @ da glass house to celebrate chester's 18th birthday .. hahas he stood on the chair taking a fire sparkler and while standing on da chair he had to blow off the candles on da cake which is on the table .. i took pics of him having cream on his face and da boys with stupid poses hahas .. hope you enjoyed your dinner with us =)

i know i am veri random but i got da urge to play basketball i dunno why am i feeling this way .. thinking back da days when huiyi.peixin.wency & i we will always meet up almost everyday to play bb at henderson bb court .. awww those were da days i miss it so much ..

when you take a step forward i will take two steps backwards cos i dun want it to happen da way it shouldnt be at all ..

2007-05-06T21:41:00.001+08:00

today is a boring boring boring day and yeshs i mean boring !~ .. okies but during noon aliff asked me out fer lunch at clementi central i ate chicken rice yummy and then we head towards mac .. that aliff manage to finish one cup of lime juice one strawberry sundae PLUS 9 pieces of chicken mcnuggets and he ate nasi bryani before that .. he tried to tempt me to eat da nuggets BUT i didnt got tempted hahas .. and we even played scissors paper stone .. if i lose i have to eat 3 of the nuggets but too bad he lost to me whahahahas !~ he really sucks at this game =P ..
P.S. next time please reply my msg faster i dun like to wait =)

2007-05-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

okies i just did something stupid while chatting with kh gosh i thought tmr is monday and guess whats i even packed da bag that i am gonna use to bring to school hahahas okies .. how dumb and blur can i be arrrgghhh ..

arrgghh my skin is peeling .. its not da right time to peel so sians can .. i wanted to wear a tube dress this thursday cos its my precious babe - hui yi's birthday and we re going out to eat .. arggghh i doubt i can wear that now =( so sad .. its okies maybe fated not to be prettier than da birthday girl whahahahahas =X .. after her birthday soon will be june and pei xin birthday gosh so many birthdays coming up .. poor ren qi and i ours re during november hahas .. but well i think there is a lot to catch up this thursday .. though hui yi and i haven seen each other like damn long but everytime i meet up with her i will have a lot to blabber to her hahahas .. okies this thursday hopefully pei xin will come along then it will be da 5 lesbians outing whahahas =X

lets talk about yesterday .. hmm i went to catch a movie with kh wanted to ask aishah along but she playing badminton with her frens but its okies hahas .. da movie isnt exactly damn nicee cos some parts in da middle of da show was a little boring but overall its okies .. i nearly cried at da ending cos its so touching =( BUT i held back my tears hahas cos kh beside me later he laugh at me whahahas =P .. i cant imagine if there is a day i become so fat like her will i ever consider liposuction in order to have da self confidence .. okies i shall not eat too much if not that day will really come hahas .. and yeaps we ate at swensens da food is not that up to da standard .. kh ate da salmon baked rice and yeshs its damn salty ! he ate it so cool-ly hahas until the end when left one more spoonful of rice he told me actually its damn salty he dun want to eat already hahahas i wanted to laugh but i ''ren'' =P .. i ate da cheessy chicken okies its not that bad but certain parts of da chicken quite bitter yucks which spoilt my appetite so i didnt finish it =)

i came across this today so i decided to put on my blog hahas ..

"One day Love met Friendship.Love asked,
Why do you exist when I already exist?
Friendship replied, To put a smile where you've left tears."

smilesowaes =))

2007-05-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

simple words from certain people do makes me happy =)

okies this ''poem'' is written by aliff and he told me to put in it my blog but its not dedicated to me hahas ..

Title: Fly Away
Heart is so cold
never felt this lonely
days re getting old
there's no one to phone me
lately you've never been told
that i miss you only
we've worked so hard to put this together
like a soap on your body i would lather
This is not the only time
that making love was a crime
we're from two different worlds
when we see, we unite
why do i ever have to write this
this is not exactly was suppose to be
i saw you as the light
heat of the night
but why? why it feels so different now
i wish that you were never been found
it's hurting me deeply inside
slowly its killing me by the day
my heart pumps slower than a day ago
it's not physical, more emotional
emotional it is, it can never be compromised
cause what i saw, never come from your eyes
hope you get this straight into your heart
i'm sick, yes i am and i'm glad that i am
i'd do whatever i can, not to be afar
with that, i sincerely hope that you fly away
away from me, as far as you can be
cos i'll be going to, as far as away from you.

2007-05-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm actually dun feel really good now .. i am having headache.sore throat.dry cough and lower backache arrrgghhh =( i dun want to be sick cos da frens around me re all falling sick .. okies today went to kbox with june and fiona i sing till my sore throat got worst but i still enjoyed myself hahas .. hmm today i told fiona smth how god answered my prayers when i prayed for her .. i dunno if she think its fake or so unreal but i think God really does make miracles in my life and miracles in my frens and family life =) ..

okies my skin is peeling its so dry now i look horrible eeeeeks i dun want to look into da mirror but not my face is not as bad as stephen's face wahahahahs ooops =X .. today my stupid right arm hurt again it hurts so much that i cried cos i really BTH .. da pain just come then i have to put down whatever i am holding cos i dun seems to have da strength to hold arrggghh hope it recovers soon =(

smilesowaes =))

2007-04-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

hmmm yesterday i went to sentosa with da gls and freshies though not many ppl turn up but we still enjoyed ourselves a lot rites cos i did =) .. oh yeahs i finally get to eat my ben & jerry ice cream cookies dough =P yummy .. i also ate da newzeland natural ice cream i forget whats that flavor called something fruits hahas its yummy ! okies everything is yummy to me hahahas .. oh yeahs we played volleyball each of us trying our best to keep da ball in the air prevent it from dropping yeshs its fun.fun.fun ! hahas .. then later on we had this battle in da water .. fer da first round i sat on chester shoulder and june on thienesh shoulder and we have to try to push your opponent off da shoulder wahahahas da first round failed cos june and i accidentally hit our ''horse'' hahahas .. then da 2nd round june as usual on thienesh shoulder while i am on kh shoulder .. its a miracle he can support me whahahahas =P but in the end i lost cos half of kh face is like in da water i cant possibly continue da game hahas .. but poor him whahahas =X .. and we did a lot of stupid things like collecting da seaweeds and throw at each other hahas okies i know its dumb but who cares i am enjoying myself =)) .. and all of us re burnt terribly burnt gosh .. and yeshs i sprain my right shoulder once again damn it but its all worth da fun hahahas =PpP

today kh accompanied me to da chinese medical thing to relieve my sprain .. okies i can tell you its hella of a pain but i tired my super best not to scream cos i dun want to have eyes staring at me whahahahas !~ .. but i feel better now .. and yeahs kh thankiew fer accompanying me though you re damn sick i appreciate it =))

okies rites now i am feeling damn emo .. too many thoughts running thru' my mind but its okies i tell myself soon it will be over when i dun get to see you ..

smilesowaes =))

2007-04-26T21:16:00.000+08:00

today during WPD was my 1st lecture that i listen in class so attentively partly due to there re many notes to copy down which re not in da slides hahahas =X but at least i paid attention though in between june.aishah.ting and i were talking craps and laughing so loudly hahahahas =P ..

okies today there re 4 ppl asking me ''so have u gotten over him?'' .. my reply is ''i dunno'' why i say that cos firstly, i really dunno cos i haven been seeing him for 1 month + and i wish i dun need to see him but quite impossible cos we attend da same church .. secondly, if i say i did am i heartless? but anyway i really dunno da answer .. june say '' wahs u can so fast forget him'' but i really dunno .. da feeling is not there maybe cos i have been having friends around me to support me, listening to my emo talks, listening to my craps, telling me ultimate lame jokes to cheer me up, lending me a shoulder to lean on, accompanying me to shop and eat dinner =) .. oh man i lurrvee this kinda of life ! ..

hope it doesnt fades off after i graduate =( .. each of you plays a major role in my life .. cos you will never know even a few words from you can make me happy .. i am easily amuse and contented though my appearance always gives ppl wrong idea that i am materialistic i need ''big things'' to make me happy which is what he used to think .. he thinks that by buying me expensive stuffs will make me happy .. i dun need all these anymore ! ..

lalalala anyway june i stil lurvee you veri much cos i know you have always been there fer me though sometimes you tell me things that can get onto my nerves but i know you have been a true fren .. i apologize on his behalf cos he pestered you till you wanna pull your hair .. lurvee you veri much WANG HOU ! xiao de bu gan le ! hahahahahas =X

aishah thankiew fer allowing me to sleepover and tell you my darkest secrets sheeesh ! .. even that stupid june dunno hahahahahas =X .. but yeahs thankiew fer being there really .. you re being a veri good fren though didnt know you fer long but hope our friendship will remain like that .. you better dun suan me cos i waited fer 4 hours fer you to rebond and curl your kuku hair hahahahas =P

yi ting remember what i told you on msn .. those re true words .. you have really been a veri understanding fren without you poly life will never be fun cos i will one day miss those craps that i endured with you fer near to 3 years hahahahas =X .. but i really lurvee you okies cos you made my poly life colorful =)

clement though you can be quite sickening at times just like june getting onto my nerves but i know when i need a pair of listening ears you will be there to listen hahas .. so stop being so irritating =P

aliff though you re 24 years old this year but trust me .. you dun behave like one ! wahahahahas .. you can be super lame to da max that i cant take it .. but i will never forget u saved me on that day when i couldn't wake up and was near to late fer my nss paper hahahahas =P

fiona .. i really hope you will walk out of your shadow and pls dun ever need to put on a mask i front of me cos i prefer da true you .. but really thankiew fer taking care of me when i was drunk sorry fer making you worry but you know i still care fer you .. when you feel no one cares just turn your head around i will be right behind you to support you .. and congrats you got da ttsh bond =)

king kong .. didnt know you fer a longgg time only like since trial camp hahahas though its a short period of time when i chat with you its like i know you fer a long time .. maybe partly cos both of us always crap those nonsense .. i still cant imagine i crap with you fer one whole day ! .. anyway thankiew fer accompanying me to dinners and waiting fer aishah hahahas .. its been great knowing you cos you crack lame jokes to make me happy hahahahas =X

to those ppl i didnt mention doesnt mean i forgotten you hors ! =)

smilesowaes =))

2007-04-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

i remebered yesterday i was telling kh after i put single in friendster .. there is like so many ppl viewing my profile i think must be some kaypoh ppl its more than usual till date now is like 196 ppl which is double da number hahahas .. well maybe i should be optimistic i tell myself i became more famous wahahahahahas =P

today i went to school for 1 hour how great is it ? .. nothing great i was lost i didnt know what was da lecturer teaching .. a little regretted choosing clinical trial but nvm whatever it is i will work hard and maintain my result =) .. after school i went home and fell asleep while messaging then i was awoken up by ting's message and i realise i got 6 unread messages hees didnt know i am that famous .. okies then i meet aishah @ nuh bus stop and kh meet us at bugis .. guess what kh dunno where is da bus stop kuku him hahahahas =P but in the end he still manage to find his way there .. while aishah went to rebond and curl her hair @ chapter 2 kh and i went to the chinese eatery to have our dinner cos i didnt eat any food since morning and was a little giddy i think i was hypo at that time .. okies kh and i were talking about our secondary school life and about gangstery hahahas .. as usual we crap around .. then we went to shop at bugis street .. i bought 3 pairs of ear rings and its my first time helping a guy to choose ear rings too hahahas but its okies this shows he trust my taste hahahas =X .. then i bought two tops which he say da words suits me a lot hahahahas i totally agree XP .. next we went to starbucks he ordered chocolate ice blended and oreo cheesecake .. i ordered almond buttercake hahas .. his cake is damn nicee hahahas i will eat that da next time i go there .. guess wads we waited fer aishah fer 4 hours .. luckily kh was with me if not i will be rotting in bugis .. thankiew ars =) aishah wanted to eat so we head towards lau par sat .. oh my goodness gracious i ate stingray.satay and stir fried beancurd argggghhhhhh today is a damn sinful day i ate toooooooooo much i cant seems to control !~~~ damn =(

smilesowaes =))

pool =)

2007-04-24T21:05:00.001+08:00

hees today went to stephen condo to play pool .. hahas i dunno wads wrong with my aiming and hand today i think a bit cock-eyed .. i played against aishah and i was horrible+terrible=incorrigible whahahahahas ! .. luckily kh helped me to shoot some balls in if not i sure lose hahas .. but guess wads ?! .. i win da game but its a tyco one whahahahahas =P .. and june said she want to ''mai pi gu'' then i said ''kh will be da first to chiong there'' whahahahahas .. i had a nicee time suanning her today woooahs !~ so fun .. anyway june is stupid i BTH her hahahas .. she is stupid in playing scissors paper stone .. she can say jurong east is at da east side .. yeahs i dunno why i got such a stupid 6 years fren i dunno how i tolerate her hahas dun ask me why =X

I WILL NEVER REGRET =)

smilesowaes =))

2007-04-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm today lessons were boring arrrgggghh what a bad start for da week .. BUT going out with frens to eat was fun wahahahas .. we went to west mall @bukit batok to eat .. we ate at da food court and i ate chicken rice yummy !~ myabe cos i was too hungry hahas .. then we went to arcade to play wooooahs it was damn fun we played daytona and da hockey thing hahahahas .. darn funny we played and screamed at da same time hahahahas .. and you should look at stephen's actions and expression its damn damn damn damn damn funny ! i cant stop laughing hahahas =P

oh yeahs forgotten to mention this .. today we played scissors paper stone .. da lwinner will slap da loser hand .. gosh i can tell you ayu and kh smack me i can cry arggggghhh its damn pain hahas but thats da purpose of it .. that stupid kh not gentleman one lors slap so hard hahahahs lalalalala =P

smilesowaes =))

2007-04-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

just came back from dinner with kh .. we ate at a place beside alazzar da johnson chicken and duck .. well it wasn't as nicee as i thought but it wasn't bad either hahas .. i am too hungry to even care da taste hahas .. but thankiew kh fer accompanying me fer dinner =) oh yeahs thankiew fer da ice-cream treat too lalalala dun expect a bigger treat from me hahahahahas =X

okies i was at aishah's house last night dun ask me why i ended up there .. well there is no reason for that whahahahas =P .. yesterday we talked fer awhile and i slowly fell asleep was too tired hahas .. cos yesterday went to jog @ bukit gombak stadium and went to da gym after that so was exhausted after exercising .. met up with da rest in da evening and we went to vivo city hahas .. we didnt do much there but i went to shop with ting.aishah.june and fiona .. aishah targeted a lot of clothes i think she is gonna shop like mad on tuesday i can forsee that hahas i am sure i am gonna enjoy shopping with her too lalalalaa~ =) ..

wad a night home !~

2007-04-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

tonight was fun i went to play dota with fiona.aishah.june.clare.saab.hanisah.kh.harry.ashraf.ting.mahatthir.kadir.stephen.clement .. did i miss out anyone ? .. hees clement taught me how to play it was fun though i was slow in learning hehes but he is patient thank god hahahas =P this is da fun part .. but when it was time to go home .. damn it i met a group of ah bengs those cannot make it one they keep pestering me for my number arrrrghhh .. i have no choice but to walk faster and da road to my house is damn dark .. i know they re following me but i don't dare to turn around .. so i walk faster and faster and guess what .. nearly knock down by a stupid driver cos he didnt on his headlights .. i stunned for 2 seconds before running up to my house .. gosh it freaked me out !~~~ .. but luckily clement messaged me which make me feel at least a fren still do care hahas gosh .. okies dun get da wrong idea ppl .. i just like da feeling of being cared hahas lalalalala who doesnt rites .. thankiew clement =)

having mixed feelings of: happy.scared.shocked.jealous =)

2007-04-19T19:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday night i chatted with this primary school fren of mine .. she was telling me she liked this guy but that guy end up liking her best fren .. well she ask me what to do .. i said if i were her i would feel hurt but i will give them all my blessings .. i mean there is nothing to she can do now .. and yeahs i will be feeling so hurt but i would rather be da one who get hurt and not my best fren .. life is like this .. its meant to be yours it will be if not it will never be even though how hard you fight fer it .. and i totally agree with what my fren say .. da worst way to miss someone is when he is beside you yet u know u can never have him .. hope this kinda of thing doesnt happen on me =)

2007-04-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

hees today i went to school fer like 1 hour only damn waste my time i didnt learn anything ! .. but went to alazaar fer lunch .. had mutton soup with rice and makes me feel so oily in my stomach feel like puking ! .. hahas after that went fer shopping gosh ! .. i bought a mabo bag fer 30 bucks .. its was actually 99 lars .. june and fiona bougth it also wahahahs so fun ! i lurvee shopping ! =)

2007-04-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

okies today i went out with june.aishah.fiona.kadir.keen hong.stephen .. well fer da start we went to catch a movie called turiastas i hope i spell it correctly hahas .. i can say its a boring movie damn boring nothing exciting about it but i still enjoy it cos fiona reaction damn funny she get freak out by da slightest sound hahahahas should have taken photo of it hees .. after that we went to pizza hut to have our dinner .. we waited damn long fer da food ! .. but luckily da supervisor gave us a plate of eh .. i forgotten wads it as an apology hahas .. well well we finish up everything .. today i enjoyed my day cos during dinner we kept teasing june and kh .. aishah and kadir hahahahahahas .. damn funny can .. i will never forget today =)

after dinner we went to esplanade and we chatted took photos .. hahas nicee photos we have =) .. cos its my camera wads whahahahahs .. well its a good sharing and emo session .. cos i guess i got to know some ppl even better thats good =) .. hees lets have more of such session but no more emo more of sharing yeahs ! .. i lurvee you guys - june.aishah.fiona.kadir.keen hong.stephen ! i truly appreciate your presence and thankiew for listening to my problems =)

its over ..

2007-04-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

when u break someone's heart u also break your own heart .. thats what someone told me before and i will never forget .. cos that is what is happening to me now .. i am tired mentally and physically .. i have enough .. i need some breathing place if not i will collapse just anytime .. all i need now re frens to be there to accompany me ..

my new blog =)

2007-04-15T14:06:00.000+08:00

i deleted away my previous blog cos its growing cobwebs and i just want a brand new blog whahahas so i created one .. okies i know thats a lame reason =P .. okies this entry is gonna be a long long long long long long one cos i am gonna talk about trial camp.FOC 07' & last but not least da saturday chalet that just took place last night which left me extremely drunk ! =X

trial camp took place on da 6th to da 7th of april .. its was a stayover thing .. we tried out da games that we re suppose to let da freshies play on da actual camp .. i can only say its damn fun hahahas .. ting.june & aishah wanted to throw da egg at me and i ran away fer my life cos i was having my m***** so i didnt want to play and get dirty .. you know its so uncomfortable to feel wet and dirty when you re having a period .. ashraf.theinesh.aishah.june.ting and many more ppl tried to pull me and carry me onto da soapy dog and bone mat but i held on tighlty to da fence and i can tell you its *ouch* damn pain .. but i fight fer my life whahahahas i whack theinesh so hard that he had no choice but to let go of me .. they were saying i look like some IMH patient .. but i disagree i think i am like a superwoman whahahahas i can fight with like 5 ppl .. whatever it is it was fun hahas .. june had da watermelon shell on her head it was so so so funny .. hahahas its her retributions fer keep disturbing me .. after that torture of hers she ask me to smell her hair and it stinks eeeeeekkkkks ! =P .. fer da trial camp we didnt sleep much .. aishah.june & i were like talking throughout da night about relationships & friendships problems well its a all girls' talk hahas shall not elaborate .. on da 7th off we go .. went home fer a rest and awaiting fer our FOC 07' da big event fer my this last year =( ..

da night before FOC we slept overnight in school .. and guess what ? .. we girls and guys re playing soccer in da BCLS lab whahahhas .. i shall name da ppl out that i remembered .. they re kadir.keen hong(king kong).taufiq.ashraf.june.aishah andd i .. did i miss out anyone ? .. its da girls vs da guys .. we girls ran like mad and i cant stop laughing and all of us perspire like mad .. i remembered when keen hong got da ball we 3 girls charge up to him hahahas .. i was on his back june and aishah were at da side trying to snatch da ball its damn damn damn damn funny i cant help laughing but also very tiring to snatch da ball with him hahahas .. da stupid june and aishah suppose to kick da ball then end up june kicking aishah 4th toe whahahhas .. it was swollen and rigid and she had difficulty walking .. kylie bandage her leg which make it look like a serious injury but i can say that is so very ultimate stupid that i cant stop laughing at them ! =P

FOC 07' has finally arrived on da 11th of april to da 13th of april .. june and i are da gamemasters plus some other ppl .. honestly da first day wasnt as fun as i thought cos some of da freshies went home and it was like so sians .. cos a few groups left with so little people .. but when it came to da telematch its was so fun all of them was like suddenly awaken hahas .. thank god it didnt rain on that day though its seems that its gonna rain .. i prayed hard in my heart and my prayer was answered hahas =) .. and you know what .. FIONA & KEEN HONG threw flour at me i was screaming like hell but no one to rescue me cos june was away fer work .. WTH its not fair 2 against 1 arrrrgggghhh .. da worst is mahesh came up to me with a balloon wanting to burst it in front of me i dunno why i cried cos i can only say i am veri scared of balloons i am serious .. but its okies he apologized to me and i flet so dumb crying in front of da freshies hahas =P ..
on da 2nd day were all da dirty games woooohhhhhhooooooos !!!! .. thats da day when all da freshies re so hyper and ons hahahas .. june and i re in charge of ''the things i want'' and ''egg crawler'' .. let me talk about ''the things i want'' first .. we saboed da GLs and its damn fun .. cos we asked da freshies to pluck their guy GL leg hairs hahahas i shall post up some pics later .. and i took a photo of theinesh leg hairs hahahas .. we also ask da freshies to sit on their GLs head .. and da best part is we asked da guys to take 0ut their boxers whahahhaahahas .. a group has 2 guys but they didnt wear boxers so they have no choice but to take off their underwear and take pics with it whahahahahas .. eith june and i they re so gonna die in our hands =P .. before they leave they have to do a cheer and their GLs re suppose to dance or act it out whahahahas if possible i will put up da videos .. till now when i see da videos of kh and his freshie indian dance i still wanna laugh =X .. fer da ''egg crawler'' its a very dirty game and yeahs we asked da GLs to demo to da freshie isnt it a good way to sabo them ? whahahahahs .. we used oyster sauce.tomato sauce.butter.oil and of course egg to spread it on da mat eeeeekkkks its stinks and its slippery .. i slipped and fell in front of da freshies twice damn paisehs lars *blush* .. i think its my retributions cos i took egg to ''wash'' their heads arrgggggh and riahana poured oil on them yeeeeeewwwww but its fun whahahas =P .. but da bad thing is i cut my palms a lot of times wihout realising it and my poor june's hand was peeling i can feel da pain ouch .. and while washing up da floor Faliqh took a water bomb and slam it on my spine .. i was stunned cos there was a sharp pain and i didnt know how to react .. but after that i had backache and i have to hunched in order not to feel da pain but when kylie gave me da counterpain cream to apply it was better phew ! ={ we also had our night walk .. i was with kh and guess what da first freshie kh scared failed .. BUT da funniest thing was about his chio bu whahahahahas .. june.kh and i knows what happens i shall not elaborate =P
on da 3rd day which is da last day we gathered all da freshies to play games its so fun ! .. we danced and we played games like ''fire.earthquake.hunter'' & ''blow wind blow'' .. GLs also had a cheering competition against da freshies .. wwwoooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooos !~!@!@!@!@!@! we GLs cheered and screamed till we can feel da blood rushing to da brain but after all its a very memorable thing fer me hahas =) .. i took lotsa of photos and videos and i am gonna treasure them if ever my computer crashed thats it i am gonna cry like hell .. i will missed da times that i spent in FOC cos its gonna be da last year and i really made a lot of frens .. especially da year 2s .. arggghhh good times always flies by me so fast .. if i have a time machine i will stop time from passing by =( ..

da day after da FOC which is yesterday .. we had a chalet at changi .. many of us was like dead drunk including me =PpP .. i dunno what the hell i was doing i can only remember i kept crying and talking about my bastard father i want to stop talking but i cant help it i just want to vent and pour everything out .. i know i was doing stupid things i asked kh to keep feeding me with nuggets .. i drank lotsa of water .. kh poured water on june and i trying to make us awake .. i was complaining that my bra and panty were wet and its so uncomfortable .. i sat on da staircase wanting to sleep but cant .. kh took a cushion fer me and accompanied me while june was making hella of a noise .. i remember when june and i re sitting outside .. kh and kadir were sitting beside me i lean on them and kept talking rubbish and laugh .. oh man this is crap !~~~ .. when i was sober i felt so darn ashamed of myself WTH i was doing .. when i say i will not be drunk yet it turn out to be this way arggghhh .. i drank about 6 cups of mixed alcohol and a pure jack daniel's if i am not wrong which clement gave me .. everyone were like calling me a lobster and i felt so high hahahahahas .. luckily i didnt stripped cos i felt so warm =X .. i will never forget this theinesh ask me to get into this gigantic freezer and he sat on it didnt allow me to come out .. i scream like hell and i cried cos i am scared of enclosed area actually and i feel like i couldnt breathe cos it was so cold .. and i was like so tipsy and kept crying hahahas i felt so dumb .. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT i promise never to get drunk again i am serious da feeling isnt good and its darn embarrassing =X .. and to those guys that i whack i am so sorry i didnt mean it i know i whacked kadir and kh hahahahas pardon me cos i didnt know what was i doing .. but its very nice to have you guys around .. and to frens like aishah and fiona i am sorry to disapoint you .. i lurvee you all !!!!!!!~~~~ =)))))))) thankiew once again fer staying with me when i am dead drunk =P